False Memories// Ver. 3.0\ Panic! It's Better When You Do..<3

26/08/06

"Ride The Wings Of Pestilence"

Hiding behind the shadows
I'll be waiting in the dark
to drive this blade straight through your heart
I'll drag your body to the car
as blood races down my arm
I think everyone will wonder where you are (tonight)

I'll hide you in my walls
your body will never be found
I'll wear your skin as a suit
Pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to

Dear diary my teen angst bullshit has a body count (count)
I believe it's 6 going on 7 now (7 now)

I've been dreaming about you
in a pool of your own blood
with your eyes gouged out
by the work of my thumbs
the scent of your insides
from under the floorboards
the perfect perfume
for settling a score.

I'll hide you in my walls
your body will never be found
I'll wear your skin as a suit
Pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to
Pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to

Ride the wings of....
Ride the wings of....
Ride the wings of....
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!

Oh how I LOVE this song.. buy a luver-ly little band called From First To Last.
This song rocks..

{26/08/06 3:45 PM}

26/08/06

Ah.. So much has changed. School's around again and I could care less.. I'm around the same people who truly do NOT know how I feel. Last night, I locked myself in the bathroom and cried, I felt the worst mixed emotions.. Anger, Fear, and Sadness. (They've followed me to this house.) I promised myself I wouldn't start cutting again.. and I haven't..yet.(Why did she?) Because of the consequences it bore the last year and a half ago. But, I need to.. they don't understand.. would they rather me O.D. or something else.. I feel like I need an escape.. but I don't know what that escape is.. I don't know really what direction to go in anymore.. I do the same thing every day of the week. Get up, go to school, pretend to be happy, come home, do homework, go to bed.

I need something DIFFERENT. Different, indeed.

{26/08/06 3:27 PM}

13/08/06

Hi. Wow.. I haven't wrote in my blog for quite sometime. Gosh.. I dunno.. Well, we've been moving and everything..I've been attempting to write poetry today.. but it isn't happening.. -_-; I'm exhausted.. and I want a paying job.. I need money.. Damn things costing money.. Well, nothing exciting has happened. My step-dad has been home for a week, I think. Time means nothing to me don't you know? I've been sick for a few days.. headaches.. the usual. Even more honestly.. I don't really care that he's home.. I mean we do absolutly NOTHING while he's here except go to neccasary stores. I NEED MOVIES PEOPLE.. I haven't been able to rent any movies for over a week!! They must think I've dropped of the planet at the movie place. I'll be there one day!! BELIEVE IT! What, I've got like five problems resolving in this one post. Oh.. well. I mean my stepdad is nice and everything.. (Hell, he just bought me an X-Box 360 o.O) but we do nothing when he's home.. he's only here for a month.. god FLY TIME, FLY!!

Okay anyways.

P.S. -- Kelly, no kidding. I'll give you a call within the next few days! You know me >_______<;

{13/08/06 6:52 AM}

13/07/06

Arh.. I'm really ticked off. I want to know how to make a blog layout.. I know what I want it to be and everything.. I just don't know how to make it and code the freaking thing. ><; If someone please can explain this to me e-mail me at heartlesskitten1@aol.com. Because I need some help, I've started a new private blog that I'm not making public until there's a nice layout on it.......

{13/07/06 6:48 AM}

12/07/06

Well.. I don't know what to say anymore. With what's been going on and all. Honestly... How was I absent from all this? Caught up in all my problems.....................well......I'm trying...

{12/07/06 12:15 AM}

20/06/06

Oh. I SWEAR, it's driving me insane.
Where have you gone.
I need to talk to you again.
'Cause. I swear it's driving me insane..

{20/06/06 3:51 PM}

19/06/06

I think I turned on the headphones a liitle too loud today.
I can feel my ears bleeding.
Because only those headphones can bring my comfort.
I'm tired, so just let me be, and clean up the bloody mess I left.
I trashed my headphones today.
By accident, I swear.
The only thing I had of yours, now a blood covered mess.
Just because I turned them up too Loud.

(I know my poems are weird xDD No shit. I wrote this without even realizing I had.. Thank you iPod.)

{19/06/06 7:41 AM}